THE ACADEMY AGAINST APATHY

Moving

2009-07-22T10:19:00.000-07:00

Word.

1 Thessalonians 2

2009-01-21T09:31:00.000-08:00

3) For our exhortation did not come from error or uncleanness, nor was it in deceit. 4) But as we have been approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel, even so we speak, not as pleasing men, but God who tests our hearts.

5) Nor did we seek glory from men, either from you or from others, when we might have made demands as apostles of Christ. 7)But we were gentle among you, just as a nursing mother cherishes her own children. 8) So, affectionately longing for you, we were well pleased to impart to you not only the gospel of God, but also our own lives, because you had become dear to us.
9) For you remember, brethren, our labor and toil; for laboring night and day, that we might not be a burden to any of you, we preached to you the gospel of God.
10 ) You are witnesses, and God also, how devoutly and justly and blamelessly we behaved ourselves among you who believe; 11) as you know how we exhorted, and comforted, and charged every one of you, as a father does his own children,
12) that you would walk worthy of God who calls you into His own kingdom and glory.

There is so much here I don't even know where to start. I want this to be my testimony in ministry. I want this to by my testimony at home, and among my peers. I ask for an End Vision for these fleeting eyes, and this insatiable heart.

What we have is not equal to what we are.

2009-01-02T09:49:00.001-08:00

My Friend, what are we afraid to lose that we would hold after this breath of life expires and the silver cord is severed, And this dirt laid/made flesh retires? Can it be preserved, This stuff we've made our lives?
Can we hold it in our hands before Him, The giver of all things? Will it match the value of crimson royalty? Could it be counted a worthy exchange?

And when He holds out His hands before us…..the ones that bear our names, what then, what then? The spoil of our life will be as ashes in the wind. Dear Friend, count the cost……what is it to gain this kindling wood world if our souls are to be lost? Let's mark ourselves of Him, And store our treasures in Heaven, And shake the ashes from our feet, and the dust from this earth, but NOT IN RETREAT. To lay hold day and night the promises of OUR King. To contend with earnest and sobriety. My lamp burning with abandon do not let me be caught sleeping!!!! Let my eyes be kept watching with fear and trembling.

I will not be swept away with the "goodness" of humanity. With The Oprahs, The Bonos, and The Sean Hannitys. My allegiance is Christ THE ONLY ONE WORTHY. To Know Him, to Agree with Him, to Obey Him, to Love Him, to Burn for Him, to Die for Him, is but to Live in Him. I rid myself of that which is titled Emerging. For the ancient paths of Wilderness Seeking from a broken heart Yearning.....OH THAT I MIGHT KNOW HIM!!! OH THAT I MIGHT KNOW HIM. This God Man, the First Born From the Dead. The Son of the Most High God!! JESUS! JESUS! JESUS! The soon and coming King! This Mystery of mysteries. Who exists outside of time and measure, and yet gives season to His return. All for our sakes He makes time and turn. To call upon His name and be saved. From the splendor and emptiness of this debtor's grave. This world that man made.

Prepare the way Oh heart of Mine!! Stop spending your money, your treasures, on prostitutes and lesser things. Stop eating the temporary to fill this God-hole inside of me. I am a black hole that can only be satisfied with the Intimacy of eternity, with abiding In the Secret Place. I will eat His flesh and drink His blood. The two shall become one flesh. I in Him and Him in Me. His words are Spirit and they are Truth. His words are the essence of eternity.

Only in Christ Jesus is there life and Life abundantly.

Oh God, send your Son to come quickly.

Oh Timothy, Make yourself ready.

Come quickly Lord Jesus, COME!

Serpents and Doves Part II

2008-12-21T19:30:00.000-08:00

"Wise as Serpents"
Gen 3:1:
Now the serpent was more cunning than any beast of the field that the LORD God had made. All throughout scripture and history the serpent is a symbol of wickedness and trickery. No doubt a reputation gained from what immediately transpires in the verses following the above notation.

I have spent a lot of time observing snakes in their natural environment, which curiously enough is mostly dense, open field. I'm currently on a mission to catch a "smooth grass snake" in the northern Illinois region. They are a rarity this far north, but they are a beautiful snake with a brilliant jade to emerald green coloration. Very hard to spot in any type of grass. Snakes are masters at observation, waiting, and ambushing - all attributes shared by our enemy, Satan.
Pound for pound, snakes are masters of the hunt, and very, very, clever.

If we are wise as serpents, we are as smart as our enemy. If you are as smart as your enemy, you know all of his tactics; you know his nature and it is impossible for him to surprise you or catch you unaware. It is impossible for him to use you. John 14:30-31 Jesus says this "I will no longer talk much with you, for the ruler of this world is coming, and he has nothing in me" 31) But that the world may know that I love the Father, and as the Father gave me commandment, so I do . Arise, let us go from here.

Satan had no sway over the actions or mortality of Christ. Christ reigned by subjection to the Father.To be as wise as your enemy but reckoned as a sacrifice to God. After all, obedience is better than sacrifice. You now become the ultimate weapon. You become a dwelling place for the living God, called according to His purposes. The bible tells us not to ignorant of the enemies devices.And you become the image-bearer of what every person needs and wants: Jesus Christ.To take up our cross is to take up arms against the work of Satan in our lives and others. Christ in us is the hope of glory.
God, help me to be as wise as serpents and as harmless as doves.

Serpents and Doves.

2008-11-25T09:11:00.000-08:00

So how do I defeat my self serving motives?

The obvious answers here are:

Be like Jesus

Live the Word of God.

Cool, how's that going for you?

I'll tell how I'm fighting for those things.

Mathew 10:16 is an interesting and curious verse.

It reads like this in the new king James: (Jesus is talking to his disciples.)

16) "Behold, I send you out as sheep in the midst of wolves. Therefore be wise as serpents and harmless as doves."

Without going into the behavioral comparisons to sheep and wolves/predator and prey, I really want to concentrate on the last half of the verse:

"There fore be as wise as Serpents and harmless as doves."

I started to meditate on this verse after several different people mentioned it to me over a period of about two weeks. I just kept hearing this verse.

In Leviticus 12:8 the scriptures tell us what a new mother should bring before the Lord as a sin offering and atonement sacrifice for those who are unable to bring a Lamb to the alter. It is, in fact, two turtle doves or two young pigeons.

In regards to us in the world, God calls us to be as harmless as doves. In this reference I believe Jesus was speaking of the lowliest most affordable offering and sacrifice. Even the poorest of souls could afford the dove offering.

The interesting thing about an object of sacrifice is that it's purpose is already decided. In many cases, even before it's birth. It simply is what it is. It is a one time offering, yet we are called, through Christ, to be more. Paul said that we are to be a living sacrifice. A perpetual sacrifice, if you will; a continual present tense with present purpose. Paul also said, "I die daily."

An object of sacrifice is an object of harmless, humble existence towards the benefit of others. Its power is in its fulfilled purpose. It neither needs to fight for its preservation nor defend the life it has.

Reactionary

2008-10-16T17:57:00.000-07:00

I went home miffed tonight. Yes "miffed."

miff |mif|
verb [ trans. ] (usu. be miffed) informal
annoy : she was slightly miffed at not being invited.
noun archaic
a petty quarrel or fit of pique.
ORIGIN early 17th cent.: perhaps imitative; compare with early modern German muff, an exclamation of disgust.

That's hilarious. I totally didn't think that was a real word, let alone a proper context for it.
I usually get miffed right after I've become a reactionary Jerk.

How do I become a reactionary jerk? What benefit is it to me? None. It's a dirty trick I play on myself that avails nothing but vain mutterings for the rest of the evening. Sometimes even into the next day. I have noticed that I start to become reactionary when I am not in the WORD, or actively contending to spend time with Jesus and/or be as He is.

A similar thing happened last weekend: I ended up miffed again. This time I was miffed at myself, so I went for a walk to find the root of this thing because really I hate myself when I'm like that.

I started to do the thing where I beat myself up in some weird, self-righteous, self-punishment thing. I don't think that's what Paul meant when he said, "beat my body into subjection."

Anyhow, after the pity party I just started quoting scripture over me. Things like, "I must decrease and He must increase," "In these three abide: Faith, Hope, and Love. The greatest of which is love," and lastly, "Be still and know that I AM God." So I waited, and I was still, and I fought my thoughts to be still towards the Lord.

The Holy Spirit then asked me a question. He said, "What is your (my) motivation for helping or ministering to these people?"

The question was weird, and I didn't know how to answer it. Then He asked why I stop ministering and serving and raising up people. That really hit me hard, and got me thinking.

My conclusion was an ugly one.

I have a great gift to see potential in people, to pick out a person's strengths. I can be very good at encouraging. There is nothing wrong with nurturing some one's gifts or potential, the issue is motivation.

What often happens to me is that the people I'm ministering to/mentoring mess up, or step out my plan for them. So I get upset for a little while. Then I get over it, only I never treat the person the same. I quit a little part of them. Not all of them. Not right away. Then if they change my plans for them ...

Let's take a second to analyze my plans for them first. It's ugly too, folks. Sorry.

I believe I manipulate people's potentials in God so they can eventually fulfill my own plans and agendas for things I am too chicken to step out and do before God alone. I'm cultivating potential in people with the hopes that it will potentially serve me. Not all of me, just what ever I'm lacking.

Ouch.

So if said persons step out of that plan or grooming enough, I eventually quit them all together.

How did I come to this conclusion? I base it on the way I treat people that I don't think have much potential. Now, everybody has potential; I know this. I know the verse in Jeremiah that speaks of God's plans for us. However, not everyone has potential towards me.

You can say it: that's just ugly.

So the Lord continued to speak to me and said, "Christ in you is the hope of glory." Then, Holy Spirit breathed back into me the person of Jesus and his life towards Judas Iscariot.

Jesus knew well before Judas kissed Him to a tree that Judas was building hatred and resentment towards him, that he was going to sell Him out. And yet Jesus never changed the position of His heart towards Judas. He still saw Judas the way He had intended Judas to be. He still went to the cross for Judas. He still laid down his life for a man that did not want His life. He never stopped working towards Judas' full potential.

He never stops working towards my potential. He is the only one who can fulfill my potential, my life in Him. It's Christ in me that is the hope of glory. It's Christ.

Hebrews 7:9-12-

But, beloved, we are confident of better things concerning you, yes, things that accompany salvation, though we speak in this manner. 10) For God is not unjust to forget your work and labor of love which you have shown towards His name, in that you have ministered to the saints, and do minister. 11) And we desire that each one of you show the same diligence to the full assurance of hope until the end, 12)that you do not become sluggish, but imitate those who through faith and patience inherit the promises.

I'm not miffed anymore. Now it's just a matter of putting to death those things, and putting on Christ.

Things I'm thinking about

2008-05-11T18:34:00.000-07:00

Things look to be slowing down enough for me to put some things down in hardcopy and digital copy. I'm in the process of tackling two subjects that have been on my mind for a few years now.

The nature of Satan, and self indoctrination. Mainly through Movies. We've all heard the stories about subliminal messages, and back-masking on music albums. I believe that there is a much more sublte way the enemy works, and we welcome it by convincing ourselves that it's a morally affirming harmless escape. Be careful little ears what you hear, be careful little eyes what you see. I remember singing those words in my sunday school class growing up.
I used to think it was a silly conservative goody goody song. It was, but it's true.

I am very selective about what I allow my self to see, and feel when it's under the pretense of entertainment. Or mindlessly escaping my said reality into the world of imagination on the big screen. In my past, I would watch anything I wanted. The condition of my heart became a fragile mirror of what I had filled it with. Thanks be to God for the restoration that is in Christ. It has taken me years to deprogram.
I'm certain I still am. I have noticed a stark contrast in the level of faith and the ability to believe God at His word, in people who do not have such easy access to media. Or whom do not seek that type of entertainment.

I have begin to notice a popular trend in movies geared towards the youth. I used to only see it in adult orientated films with more mature themes. While the popular theme of children's media was usually "You have the power to be what ever you want so long as you believe in yourself enough" A seemingly noble battle cry against low self esteem, and the disadvantaged.

I have noticed a far more dangerous and deceptive theme in almost every movie geared towards the youth in recent media. An indoctrination that coencides with this neo science and reason vs the God. Anything being associated with Religion or tradition being confronted as ancient lunacy. It's a new age of enlightenment and it's geared at this last generation.

More to come.

I MUST STAY HERE.

2008-02-25T13:53:00.000-08:00

This is a letter I wrote to my wife in 2006. I need to "Abide" in this place.

I miss you. I'm rocking Cory Russel's Ancient Paths (CD available through the One Thing bookstore) ... I'm really falling in love with Him, Lex. It's scary and beautiful - I'm letting go and there is no returning from here. My heart feels it will never be able to bear it. The one thing I've always longed for is the one thing my heart is dying to run from. It's fear is that it will become completely powerless to this Love. Oh, what a wretched Liar my heart is, professing to know and understand love and desire without ever knowing or being willing to go to the source and remain immersed. It screams!!! "You won't be able to breath!!! You'll die there!!! The current is too strong, and you can't touch bottom in this place. No one can hold their breath for that long!"

Then He just whispers to my spirit, "I breath for you here; I am the Breath of life. Your insecure heart only has ideas, and those ideas lead to idol worship where you truly die. I AM. Don't settle any more - break free and run, Run, RUN!!! In My river you don't swim; you don't keep your head above water. I AM the River of Living water; I AM the River of Life. You don't need to breath when you dwell in Life itself. It will sustain you beyond mortal ideology. Your entire understanding of what it takes to be alive has come from dead things. You've mistaken concepts of time and measure as Life. To understand Me those things must be put to death in you. You can't beat them into submission and keep an eye on them. You have to kill them. I Breath for you here, because I AM."

I am undone.

Who are the fathers of modern science again?

2008-02-22T09:17:00.000-08:00

William Smith was a man hired in the 1790’s for the purpose of surveying and the Somerset Canal in England. While enjoying some time to himself he began to carefully examine and record the different layers of strata in the earth. He used his “goofing off” to create the first geological map of the entire country. He pretty much transformed the Science of Geology.

Later in 1900 A French physicist Named Teisserenc De Bort discovered the stratosphere, when he sent unmanned balloons into the upper atmosphere.
Prior to that in 1883 after the eruption of Krakatau (crack a tow ah) The atmosphere become heavily contaminated with particles of the once thriving island. These particles produced remarkable optical effects easily seen with the naked eye, all over the world. Today it is recognized that the observations where actually a pre discovery of the stratosphere under the influence of Krakatau.

2700 yrs ago there lived a Prophet by the name of Amos. A book written and titled after his names sake has some very interesting statements. That I found while researching about the last days.
Amos 8:14
He who builds His layer in the sky, and has founded His Strata in the Earth:
Who call for the waters of the sea, and pours them out on the face of the earth.
The LORD is His name.
2700 yrs ago scripture mentions the layers of the Atmosphere as well as the layers in the Earth’s Strata.
On top of all that, it goes on further to reveal the process of distilled rain. Mentioned previously in Job as well. Water is brought up from the ocean forms clouds and pours out on to the land.

Eat your heart out Modern Science. You’re a day old donut.

A Brilliant conclusion and confirmation.

2008-02-10T19:29:00.000-08:00

So Friday night Switch was in full swing. The worship went well, and the preaching was...........well with God all things are possible.

Any how, during alter ministry one of the young men came up to me for some prayer.
I Immediately sensed a difference in his spirit from last week. As we were praying I felt Holy Spirit show me a few things about him. I shared both things. First was that I felt he took on burdens that were not his at all. Nothing serious, but after a while the weighed his soul down. Second I told him that his spirit seemed much more aware and lively. His countenence was much different, he seemed lighter.

He sat quietly for a moment........thinking about the word. Then he smiled like a small epiphany had just hit him square between the eyes, and out of sheer suprize he let a one of those......."heh oh yeah I get it laughs"

So I looked at him and said "what's up man, whatcha got"

He looked at me still smiling and thinking about it. " I lost my IPOD for a week"

That was revelation from God, and both words confirmed right there. The music he listened to and the stories and the senerios in the lyrics had a profound effect on the condition of his soul. So much so that even he saw the difference under unforseeable circumstances. When you listen to songs about heart ache and rebellion and hopelessness. You take in those words along with the emotions and spirits that perpetuate a bondage to those things. Ever cry to a song, or sulk to a song about a breakup? Or felt completely powerless, like you were always going to get the dirty end of the stick the rest of your miserable life?
Or maybe you felt wonderful and happy after a some praise and worship music? Felt like God was on your side and you could do anything?

He was taking on the burden of the author of those songs. Just I like used to. Even though he didn't write those songs and didn't live the authors experience....it became his.

Just as Lot's soul was vexed and tormented by the things he saw and heard day after day.

The Generation from Lot.

2008-02-05T09:55:00.000-08:00

The greatest consequence to Lot was the generation that proceeded him. Though he found mercy in the Lord's eyes and was spared the judgement of Soddom and Gomorrah. He still had to reap what he allowed to be sewn into his family just from what was around them. His Daughters having grown up in that enviroment had a perverted understanding of God and morality. So much so that incest was acceptable to them for continuing a bloodline. So they got their father drunk and procreated with him.

If we continue to fight being Holy as God is Holy. Rationalizing Grace. (we are the only creatures who have the ability to rationalize. I look at that word as Ration of lies. I believe it directly linked to the nature of Satan,and the original sin)

We must shed this life from us completely. We must "put off the former things" and strive to know what it is to be a new creation, to renew our minds. To set the standard of Truth,given to us from the source,The Word of God.

Please pray for our youth. Please pray for this generation, I believe it to be the last generation. At any ate it is the last of it's kind.

Fight the seductive voice of settling for anything less than living in Christ until you are one with Him. Fight it to the death.

The Christian Soul vs The Human Self.

2008-02-05T09:18:00.000-08:00

(continued from the last line of the last post)

Wether they were Christian or not. I stopped feeding "The Individualistic Infantile Self" Here's how JP Moreland describes one of the 5 parts of an empty self in his book " Love Your God With All Your Mind" published by NAVPRESS.

It is widely recognized that adolescent personality traits are staying with people longer today than in earlier generations, sometimes manifesting themselves into the early thirties. Created by a culture filled with pop psychology, schools and media that usurp parental authority, and television ads that seem to treat everyone like a teenager, the infantile part of the empty self needs instant gratification, comfort, and soothing. The infantile person is controlled by infantile cravings and constanly seeks to be filled up with and made whole by food, entertainment, and consumer goods. Such a person is preoccupied with sex, physical appearance, and body image and tends to live by feelings and experiences. For the infantile personality type, pain, endurance, hard work, and delayed gratification are anathema. (Accursed) Pleasure is all the matters, and it had better be immediate, Boredom is the greatest evil, amusement the greatest good.

Wow.................so I see some empty self in me. How about you? The most troubling thing about these traits is they are found all over the Western Church today. I find the level of Apathy and carousing in vetern "believers" astonishing.

I think the single most contributing factor to this type of self is what we feed ourselve. We will eventually acclimate to the enviroment that we surround ourselves with. "Your vision is your future" so to say.

2Peter 2:7-8 Says that "righteous Lot" (Remember Peter is addressing us the Christians) was oppressed by the filthy conduct of the wicked, and that dwelling amoung them tormented his Soul day after day. Simply by what he saw and heard, it wasn't even nessecary for him to participate in the wickedness for it to have a traumatic effect on his soul.

If you could tatoo your soul this is how it's done. No wonder the Christian mind is where it's at today

Most of our youth are going through the same struggles by one means or another. They've even admitted to know what the source of the battle is for them. It's not hard to figure out what the source is. It's what continues to remain despite everything else the've done to assess the problem. They continue to listen to the same music, media, and they have the same nonChristian relationships. What's a good definition of insanity? Doing the same thing over and over again yet expecting different results.

I hate you Satan. You are defeated. God is faithful and Just to finish the work He started in our youth, Church, and Me.

(Sorry if My spelling and grammar were crummy these last few posts, I'm working with a limited time for editing and my spell check isn't working)

A Warning From Lot

2008-01-31T09:33:00.001-08:00

I've been really trying to meditate on 2Peter 2:4-11
4)For if God did not spare the angels who sinned, but cast them down to hell ( the word used for hell there is actually the Greek word "Tartarus" taken from Greek Mythology. Tartarus, is a place that is lower than hades and is reserved for the most wicked humans,gods,and demons) and delivered them into chains of darkness, to be reserved for judgment; 5) and did not spare the ancient world, but saved Noah, one of eight people, a preacher fo righteousness, bringing in the flood on the world of the ungodly; 6) and tuning the cities of Sodom and Gomorrah into ashes, condemned them to destruction, making them an example to those who afterward would live ungodly; 7) and delivered righteous Lot who was oppressed by the filthy conduct of the wicked 8) (for that righteous man, dwelling among them, tormented his righteous soul from day to day by seeing and hearing their lawless deeds)
now it's important to mention here that Peter is addressing Christians here.

I think it's amazing what he says about lot. If you go back and read Gen 19:1-29 you can see some of the effects the "seeing and hearing" the deeds had on lot and his family. Peter refers to Lot as a "righteous" man, something to think about.

Lately we've had a lot of oppression coming against the Youth of our church. I hear them telling me about how they are struggling with things and we pray about it together and they presume to repent, and leave that thing behind all the while holding a " Man I hope I'm through with this " type of uncertainty lingering behind their eyes. I remember my struggles in my youth with veiwing pornography, speaking evil of people (and by evil I mean saying things like "That person should just die already" as a joke......right) I prided myself on wearing my heart on my sleeve so everyone could see my burdens (or at least hear about them all the time). I battled a whole slue of unessesary sinfulness.

Oh I would get convicted, and "repent" (feel sorry, for feeling sorry) and make my promises to do better next time, and say bold things like I'm never doing that again. As if I could do it in my own strength..............yeah right. I finally decieded to Repent one day. (what a novel Idea) The first order of buisness was to remove the things contributing to this type of sin conscieousness. I Got rid of my television and VCR first. I decided to never purchase a video game system again. And eventually I freed my mind and heart from any and all music that did not glorify God and promote a life of Holiness. I decided that God ment more to me than my emotions and only he could fix me. Not someone with a clever melody perpetuating insanity and then singing over and over again about the madness that has become life to them.

Interpretation?

2007-12-20T10:16:00.000-08:00

This last dream was very detailed, and troubling to me. I decided to take it to the Lord in Prayer. Here is was I have so far. I believe that the Lord is telling me that Prayer is seed that must be sewn before a storm, and that there is a harvest to reap after the rains have watered the ground.Though storms carry destruction and wind. They almost always carry some sort of water. The prayer is watered in layboring through the storm, and there is a harvest that is brought forth.

There was another dream that came before these two. I was fighting physically with some large powerful men. I could have taken them and subdued them. I knew that I was smarter, and faster, and had no fear. I also learned that if I took the battle completely into my own hands.......retrobution could effect the rest of my life. As it was not in me to Kill these men. Though I knew It would be easy for me to do so.

It was a mess. And very stressfull much like my secound dream.

A few weeks ago as a matter of fact the night of our Worship team Christmas Party
(Best worship team ever by the way)I had a very mild attack. where I started to fight a sleep paralysis episode. I imediatly got up rebuked whatever it was that was coming against me. And soon after felt the Holy Spirit tell me to pray! That I've been looking at prayer wrong lately. I let it become a burden based on my circumstance. I have not seen it as a weapon or as a ministry. The Holy Spirit Spoke softly, but firmly to my spirit, and said... There are things against you, and your church that you cannot number, Your enemy is relentless. They're are Satanist who pray continualy against God's people, and an antchrist spirit in everything the world promotes. However the Victory is yours if you live in it. Stay Sober, Watch, and Pray.

it has shaken me.

Dreams and Seed Act 2

2007-12-20T09:18:00.000-08:00

Dream No2 of the same night. Lex and I were on some property connected to a country road. we headed south along the road on either side was a small ditch, typical of country roads. On either side of the ditch were more properties. All farm properties with feilds.......some of them were just fields. The sky looked like a cloudy night sky with deep deep purples and silver streakes. All up and down the road the properties made semetrical grids or squares on either side. The road was about one half mile long. I think that I was at one far end, and on the other end......was aparameter of Super Cells about 50yrds wide each. They extended from the cloud cover to the ground and seemed to be alive with Lightning.......but no thunder.

The parameter extended parallel to the road along the backs of each field roughly 250yrds from the road on each side, and appeared to be moving in from all sides. The storm was comming and was unavoidable. It's appearence was certain destruction. Tje only light sources came from small electric lights, but mostly lighning.Along some of the ditches were very small brush fires. which didn't seem to be spreading at all. I believed they had been caused by a lighting strike. Only it was as if the fire had already done its damage and was now burning out.

We decieded to head back to our property and the safety of a large house of which I never saw the outside as a whole. Most of what I saw was the interior. On the way to the House, I past by some people planting seeds in one of the fields. In fact it was my mother with at least one other man who seemed like a new person she had recently recruited. His knowledge of planting was newly learned and not at all complete. It was as if my mother was training him, mostly by example. Though he did seem to quote her with something that affirmed her position of wisdom. I exchanged a few words with my mother that I cannot remember. What I do remember was her face and her new friends face. The scene was fast paced as I was passing right by them. My mother, though surrounded by this ever encroching storm kept a peaceful steady confident countenance. Her Circumstances did not deter her from her sewing seed. Which she did in an old style manner of scattering about from her seed pouch.
It seemed to be more important than the circumstance. She seemed to know she still had time before the supercells reached her.

Back in the house. Of which may have been an old church I visisted once or twice. I went from one end to the other. I past through a large gym area checking locks which is something I do often. A good habbit of years of closing a skate park, and other businesses. Now the storm was no longer an issue. It became a priority to prevent a trespass.
As I got to the back door I knew there was something on the otherside to meet me. I knew it was evil what ever it was. Just like in a suspence film, as I tried to hold the nob of the door to activate the lock the nob turned back and forth with resistance even as when I released the Nob. Not being one to hide from the unknown. I opened the door, and met the unknown with a no nonscence firm "Get Out". The door opened with out resistance and opened in towards me. Behind the door was nothing, but some small trees blowing in the wind of the storm. All most at the instance that I said words "Get out" I awoke and said them aloud.

Dreams, and seed.

2007-12-20T09:02:00.000-08:00

Wow, so my wife and I have have been having some pretty strange dreams lately. She doesn't know about mine yet.

Last night I had 2 very strange dreams back to back preceeded by one of highstrangeness the night before. I will try to elaberate and recall as much as I can about them. Dream one last night, was quiter troubling to me based on the my conduct in the dream.
The Stage: For some unknown reason, we had left our VW rabbit in a parking lot overlooking a city park. when we got to it. We found the car completely decimated.
the soft top had been removed (it was trashed anyways) the engine was gone the window were gone and it was up on blocks with no tires. The odd thing was the body was left in perfect shape unharmed. It looked the shell of a car during production. I remember Lex being ok with it. I however was not an somehow found the need to scream the word "Fuck" as if it would somehow make feel better. This was typical of the way I used to act when I allowed myself to be a victom. Fallowed by me breaking something that I usually owned and actually didn't want broke.

The interesting thing to note that while the emotions felt the same as when I would "Lose it" because I deemed that the circumstances justified the behavior. However no matter how mad I tried to get and how powerful I tried to make the explitive sound......I projected it over and over and over again (that was the troubling part of the dream for me. Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks) Some where during the dream it was like I comepletely shutdown. And switched topics in my subconscience. I realized there was nothing I could do to redeem or satisfy the situation.

All of my strength could not bring for justice on my part.

Something Horribly Familar

2007-12-12T09:52:00.000-08:00

The following is small portion from a 2001 Charisma Magazine Article. It's a 2 parter. The purpose of this is again to draw similarities between Eliphaz's experience found in Job, and more modern experiences, The first is a testimony of sorts. The power of Christ and The Truth Vs. The power of Satan and Deception. There are a few web sites that I am hesitant post for reference sake. I find some of the material, as well as theories questionable. All the more reason to abide in Christ and be aware of the snares of Devil. I would also say that I have not put nearly half the time into this that these people have.

For years Cathy Land was plagued by an unsettling sense of being "visited." When she realized what was happening, she turned to God to end her abduction experiences.

The pieces started to fit together the night they dropped her. For years Cathy Land had been plagued by the sense that something wasn't quite right. There were periods of unaccounted missing time, mornings when she felt heavy and lethargic despite a full night's sleep, an unsettling sense of somehow having been visited.

Then she woke up with an alien's face inches from hers.

"He had dropped me. I could feel his breath on my face. It startled him that I woke up. He had this confused--'That's not supposed to happen'--look on his face. The second one still had hold of my legs. I rolled over into a fetal position and went right back to sleep."

In the morning she told her son what had happened. Usually the family dismissed her recollections as a joke. This time he told her: "Those were not aliens; they were demons."

"It finally all made sense," she recalls.

Her son's comment propelled her to the Internet, where she found some Christians who didn't dismiss her experiences as nonsense. Her faith was enriched and deepened as she discovered that God's power could free her from her years of torment.

"I stopped being so scared, and I got mad," she says. "I finally understood. These things were trying to get the world's attention away from God, and how better to do that than make people think they are being invaded from outer space? These are not benevolent little E.T.s come to clean up the environment, fix the hole in the ozone layer. They are not from a distant galaxy. They are raping women, they are murdering animals, they are terrifying children."

An office manager for a medical supply company, and one-time stock-car racer and singer-musician, Land began to read all she could to learn more about what had troubled her for so long. She had been fascinated by UFOs since early childhood, one time reporting a seashore sighting to the police.

"Many times I would have a strange feeling just before going to bed," she says, adding that precise memories were hazy when she awoke. "I would feel like something had happened during the night--but nothing I could put my finger on."

One time her son told of a frightening encounter he'd had with "a tall man." She admits that his account had scared her.

But she continued to devour books and TV shows on alien phenomena. She told family members about her experiences and talked about UFOs with friends, though most laughed her off.

"Sometimes it made me feel like I was losing my mind. Maybe I did dream this all up. But there were too many things over and over and over again," she says.

As she read all the Christian material she could find on the subject after her spiritual awakening, she began to see how she had been so deceived for so long. "Everything started to make sense," she says. "I realized that everything I had read had probably been happening to me all along, and it scared me. Then it made me mad. How dare they mess with me and my children?"

Land's anger over the years her life was "held" has spurred her to tell her story to others caught in the UFO mesh.

"This is war. It's the most ingenious hoax there is. It's a plan to get the world's attention away from the gospel of Christ, and it's working."

She says many exploring the UFO world are, as she was, "searching for love."

"That's what they are looking for, really, in their beliefs about aliens. But there's only one place they will find unconditional love, and they are looking in the wrong place."

An active part of her local Baptist church in Jacksonville, Florida, Land says that she now has a peace she never knew before. "I didn't know it for years.," she says. "It was a miserable existence from day to day. Nobody should be victimized like that. If I can save one person from being harmed, then I have to do this for God. It's my offering to Him.

"It's not the mission field I would choose for myself," she adds. "I would rather be feeding hungry people in India because maybe people wouldn't laugh at me. [But] who else is going to go and tell them, 'You are all being so deceived?'"

I think that this is a subject we need to study more. I think we need to spend much more time in prayer, and fasting, and the study of the word of God. There are to people out there who don't need a lesson in Theology as much as an encounter with the one true living God. Like Simon the Sorceror when he encountered Peter. Are we willing to be surrendered enough to let God move through us past our church models, and doctrines? Can we afford anything else?

"More"over

2007-12-09T20:14:00.000-08:00

I am convinced that you cannot properly fight Satan and his deceptions without the baptism of the Holy Spirit. John 14:26 But the Helper the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name, He will teach you ALL things, and bring to your remembrance all things that I said to you. John16:13a However, when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth;
Acts 1:8 But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you; and you shall be witnesses to Me in Jeruselem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the end of the earth."

I was baptized with in the Holy Spirit shortly after my decision to live the victorious Christian Life for real. I was never the same after that moment. I became empowered in the Spirit, and Nature of God Himself. If God is for you who can be against you? I started to pray in the spirit (speaking in tongues) daily. I found it much, much easier to read, and understand scripture.

Then the battle was really on. I began to experience more episodes of sleep paralysis. Only now I was totally aware of what was going on the moment it would happen, and I wasn't scared any more. I would fight it tooth and nail, and even though my body didn't have the strength that I wanted to.....My Spirit was stronger! Eventually the hold of the enemy would break, and I would whisper "In the name of Jesus I rebuke you Satan, get out!" Then I would say it aloud, and sit up right with eyes open. Turn on the light, and look around for my adversary. Of course I would see nothing in the natural. I could feel Holy Spirit there with me. I knew I was safe, and that God was teaching me how to trust in Him and access the authority He's given each believer in Christ. I would go back to bed in the peace of His promises.
...................more to come!!

More to come:P

The "More" has come.

2007-12-09T19:18:00.000-08:00

AS you can see I've deleted the other filler posts, Sorry if you folks missed the latest which I put up Friday evening. I deleted it before any of you nay sayers could comment. meh heh ha hahahhhha!!!!! COUGH"! (My wife can beat me in bowling, and blogging)

ANYWAY......So sleep paraylsis. There were a few significant things that were taking place in my life, that helped me become aware of what was really going on during these episodes. The First: I had finally gotten fed up with being a Christian living in sin. If you are unsaved or a Christian, Spirit filled or not, and you are actively participating or pursuing sinful things whether it be Rebellion (a good definition for rebellion is: overiding natural Sovereign order, and manipulating people or your enviroment to obtain a desired result. i.e. Witchcraft. It's exactly what spell casting is intended to do, and it's been the Modus Operandi of Satan since his...Hmmm, Rebellion), Fornication or Pornography, disobedience, and anything else that is not found in the nature of God or obtained by faith. Then you are giving the enemy of your soul legal access to put your life in bondage, and to destroy your sanity and your soul.

II Corinthians 10:3-6 This is a verse you hear alot in faith doctrine circles. There is a lot in there, and it's great. However most people only teach or proclaim it up to the 5th verse. If you do this, you miss the power of the verse completely.

2Cor10:3-6 NKJV,

For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh.4) For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, 5) casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, 6) (Here is the key to this warfare) and being ready to punish all disobedience when YOUR obedience is fulfilled.

You have no authority until you are under God's authority. As you start submitting and Subjecting yourself to God's Word, and His Spirit, you become empowered for spiritual warfare. It would do us all a lot of good to continue reading the rest of chapter ten in the same context. These verses if you let them will radically change the way you look at spiritual warfare, and the strongholds that exist first and formost in our minds.

Formalities and the Afterglow

2007-10-05T15:33:00.001-07:00

Alright so there you have it. Now I'll continue with my own experience. There are a few things that I think are key. Unlike some others who suffer this phenomenon, My experiences were not violent or filled with visual entities in a manner of speaking. For me it would always start as a dream whether I had just drifted off to sleep or had been sleeping for sometime. Some where in the dream things would go south, fast. Something, a new Character or object would enter my dream, and I imediately knew this thing was inherently evil. I understood it was a demon or demons. So I would attempt to fight it or get it to leave. My first instinct was to rebuke it in the name of Jesus. The only problem was it seemed no matter how hard I tried I couldn't muster the name of Jesus and when I did after much effort of which by now I had tried to wake my lifeless body. I could only mumble the name Jesus. As if I had no authority to use the name.....only after an exhoustive effort of continously speaking the Lord's name did the oppression lift. In which case I would open my eyes look around and try to catch my breath like I had just swam across a lake non stop.

I would immediately fall back asleep and forget the entire incident until the next time it was about to happen which was usually too late. I would just think "oh no not again" The events would only last 10 minutes or less as far as I can estimate. It seemed as though they would never end though.

more to come.

Part 6?

2007-10-05T15:29:00.000-07:00

The Scientific Explaination....kinda.
The medical establishment is quite aware of this phenomenon, but has a less sensational name than "old hag syndrome" for it. They call it "sleep paralysis" or SP (sometimes ISP for "isolated sleep paralysis").

So what causes it? Dr. Max Hirshkowitz, director of the Sleep Disorders Center at the Veterans Administration Medical Center in Houston, says that sleep paralysis occurs when the brain is in the transition state between deep, dreaming sleep (known as REM sleep for its rapid eye movement) and waking up. During REM dreaming sleep, the brain has turned off most of the body's muscle function so we cannot act out our dreams - we are temporarily paralyzed. Sheryl Crow Battles
The Old Hag

Rock singer Sheryl Crow is a victim of sleep paralysis, as she revealed in a 1996 interview with Rolling Stone magazine. "It's a bizarre and twisted feeling where you feel completely paralyzed. You are sure you are going to die."

"Sometimes your brain doesn't fully switch off those dreams - or the paralysis - when you wake up," Hirshkowitz told ABC News. "That would explain the 'frozen' feeling and hallucinations associated with sleep paralysis." According to his research, the effect only really lasts from a few seconds to as long as a minute, but in this half-dream half-awake state, to the victim it can seem much longer.

In her article, "Help! I Can't Move!," Florence Cardinal, About.com's Guide Sleep Disorders, writes: "Sleep paralysis is often accompanied by vivid hallucinations. There may be a sense someone is in the room, or even hovering over you. At other times, there seems to be pressure on the chest, as though someone or something perched there. There may even be sexual attacks associated with the hallucinations. The sound of footsteps, doors opening and closing, voices, all can be a very frightening part of sleep paralysis. These are known as Hypnagogic and Hypnopompic Experiences and they are what make people dread an episode of sleep paralysis."

For all their explanations, however, the sleep experts still do not know what causes the brain to screw up like this, or why some people experience it more than others.

The Revisionist.

2007-10-05T14:57:00.000-07:00

Ok, So that last post upon review is going in a good direction, but it's not the direction I want to go right now. The whole reason for this series if one could be so brave as to call it that. Is to raise awareness of these things and bring to light the truth of the situation, for the most part stated in the first of these posts. I also want to provide an explaination and an answer to help those who suffer from such things as Sleep Paralysis, Alien Abductions, and Hauntings.

I first want to establish a historical, factual, and scientific as well as Biblical foundation for such phenomenon. I want to focus more now on the Sleep Paralysis and what happens to our bodies in our sleep state.

I had suffered with sleep paraylsis and night terrors since I was a young teen. It did not stop until I was 28. Make no mistake my symptoms were not as reoccuring as some peoples. I would say that maybe it would happen to me once every month or two. However, I would say that as I became more aware of the events, when and after they had occured, The number of attacks increased to almost weekly.

Let me explain to you what I'm talking about ( Old Hag Syndrome or Sleep Paraylsis taken from an "About . Com" article )
The victims awake to find that they cannot move, even though they can see, hear, feel and smell. There is sometimes the feeling of a great weight on the chest and the sense that there is a sinister or evil presence in the room. And like the above reader, they are often quite frightened about what is happening to them.

The name of the phenomenon comes from the superstitious belief that a witch - or an old hag - sits or "rides" the chest of the victims, rendering them immobile. Although that explanation isn't taken very seriously nowadays, the perplexing and often very frightening nature of the phenomenon leads many people to believe that there are supernatural forces at work - ghosts or demons.

The experience is so frightening because the victims, although paralyzed, seem to have full use of their senses. In fact, it is often accompanied by strange smells, the sound of approaching footsteps, apparitions of weird shadows or glowing eyes, and the oppressive weight on the chest, making breathing difficult if not impossible. All of the body's senses are telling the victims that something real and unusual is happening to them. The spell is broken and the victims recover often on the point of losing consciousness. Fully awake and well, they sit up, completely baffled by what just happened to them since now the room is entirely normal.

Confronted with such a bizarre and irrational experience, it's no wonder that many victims fear that they have been attacked in their beds by some malevolent spirit, demon or, perhaps, an alien visitor.

The phenomenon occurs to both men and women of various ages and seems to happen to about 15 percent of the population at least once in a lifetime. It can occur while the victim is sleeping during the day or night, and it is a worldwide phenomenon that has been documented since ancient times.

The war for our minds.

2007-08-29T10:16:00.000-07:00

There are a few world wide phenomenons that transcend Race,culture,religion,and gender, but most of all time. Two of the biggest of these are Alien abductions or E.T. encounters, and supernatural encounters be it from Ghosts/shadow people, spirits, Demons, or Angels. You can find these types of experiences dating back to the oldest civilisations. Legends of when the God's came down to interact with man can also be found transpiring into modern times such as With Joseph Smith, founder of the Mormon religion among many other mainstream religions including Christianity.

Ancient India has volumes of sanskrit writings on such interaction. If these events are allowed to occure long enough there is most always a tranferance or "giving of some hidden knowledge"

It is believed that much of todays technology has come from such encounters with supernatural beings. Now as Christians we might find this a little over the top.

Until you read the Bible. There are many accounts of God empowering man or giving the ability to increase skills, and advance knowledge. Such as in building the Ark for Noah. How else could Noah have the knowledge to produce a working seaworthy vessel that size in what was presumably a non maritime era in human history. Or the Arc of the Covenant, and the building of the Temple.

It's said that the book of Enoch records such interaction dealing with a certain number of fallen Angels. I have yet to review Enoch. Don't get all spiritual on me about Enoch. I do not believe the book is inspired or should be in the bible. I do however think that there are historical accounts written in it, that the bible appears to back up as authentic.

However again as we've seen in the previous posts there is a knowledge that comes from God and there is other knowledge that also has a supernatural source however the end results of that knowledge is something that we were never intended to particapate in.

Pr 14:12 -
There is a path before each person that seems right, but it ends in death.

Pr 16:25 -
There is a path before each person that seems right, but it ends in death

The knowledge we attain too must confirm God's Lord ship in our lives. The Holy Spirit only brings us into a clearer perspective of Jesus. This should really be a draft, I'll rivise as I review. I"m trying to stay on point.

The Daniel 10 encounter.

2007-08-13T18:09:00.000-07:00

Daniel 10:7 I, Daniel, am the only one who saw this vision. The men with me saw nothing, but they were suddenly terrified and ran away to hide. 8 So I was left there all alone to watch this amazing vision. My strength left me, my face grew deathly pale, and I felt very weak. 9 When I heard him speak, I fainted and lay there with my face to the ground. 10 Just then a hand touched me and lifted me, still trembling, to my hands and knees. 11 And the man said to me, "O Daniel, greatly loved of God, listen carefully to what I have to say to you. Stand up, for I have been sent to you." When he said this to me, I stood up, still trembling with fear. 12 Then he said, "Don't be afraid, Daniel. Since the first day you began to pray for understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your request has been heard in heaven. I have come in answer to your prayers."

OK so this an incident the we see recorded in the book of Daniel. There are some pretty close similarities,however the content of the dialog are very different. There is fear and trembling mention again. As well as a vision. However there is also a physical encounter that fallows the vision. This Spirit also speaks to Daniel just as in Eliphaz's experience. Let's look at what this spirit says to Daniel.

"O Daniel, greatly loved of God," 12 Then he said, "Don't be afraid, Daniel. Since the first day you began to pray for understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your request has been heard in heaven. I have come in answer to your prayer.

The first Quote is a huge contrast from the vese in Job. God has a Great Love towards this Man Daniel. So that God would even hear this man and answer his prayers. God seems to consider this weak little chunk of mortal flesh in hight regard. Mind you this predates the cleansing blood and righteousness of Christ Jesus. There appears to be 2 seperate agendas here. Both spirits appear to have some knowledge of God, and yet they paint two very different pictures of God towards mankind. More to come.

The spirit's true identity.

2007-08-01T09:32:00.000-07:00

The verse in Job part 3 ( the spirit speaks )

2007-07-30T10:02:00.000-07:00

Then I heard a voice saying: 17) 'Can a mortal be more righteous than God? Can a man be more pure than his Maker? 18) If He puts no trust in His servants, If He charges His angels with error, 19) How much more those who dwell in houses of clay, Whose foundation is in the dust, Who are crushed before a moth? 20) They are broken in pieces from morning till evening; They perish forever, with no one regarding. 21) Does not their own excellence go away? They die, even without wisdom.

So can the spirit realm communicate with us via vocalization? There is a very interesting phenomenon known to the scientific and paranormal communities as E.V.P. here's a quick definition for this as well as some modern documentation of the subject.

Electronic voice phenomenon (EVP) is a term used to refer to sounds that are captured on recorded media or other electronic devices and believed by some to be voices of paranormal origin.[1] EVP are said to be typically short, usually the length of a word or short phrase, although longer segments have also been reported.[2] EVP is a branch of Instrumental transcommunication (ITC) that deals exclusively with audio.
Explanations proposed by those who believe EVP is of paranormal in origin include that they are the voices of deceased human beings, psychic projections from EVP researchers, and/or communications from intelligent non-human entities. [3][4]
Explanations proposed by those who believe EVP is of normal origin include cross modulation, interference from external RF sources, and pareidolia (the human propensity to find familiar patterns amongst random stimuli).[5][2

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An audio sample recorded at the Thunderbird Lodge on the east shore of Lake Tahoe by the AA-EVP, who believe it is an example of EVP.
In 1982, Sarah Estep founded the American Association of Electronic Voice Phenomena in Severna Park, Maryland, a nonprofit organization with the purpose of increasing awareness of EVP, and of teaching standardized methods for capturing it. Estep began her exploration of EVP in 1976, and says she has made hundreds of recordings of messages from deceased friends, relatives, and other individuals, including Konstantin Raudive, Beethoven, a lamplighter from 18th century Philadelphia, PA, and extraterrestrials whom she speculated originated from other planets or dimensions.
In March 2003, paranormal investigator Alexander MacRae conducted some recording sessions where a person was connected to a device of MacRae's design known as ALPHA.[23] MacRae reported that ALPHA is able to convert electrodermal responses into more speech-like forms. Recordings were made and analyzed by him. In an attempt to demonstrate that different individuals would interpret the recordings the same way, MacRae asked seven people to compare some selections to a list of five phrases he provided and choose the best match. He concluded that the selections were not a form of "audible Roscharch (sic)" but genuine voices whose origins could not be explained through conventional means.[3][14][24][12] MacRae's work was published by the Journal of the Society for Psychical Research in 2005.

I'm sorry for the length of this post, but I thought it necessary to bring forth modern evidence that this in not an isolated incident based on some fairytale. I know the next question is "So then who or what was this spirit who was speaking with Eliphaz." Was it a dead relative, or some ghost, or an Angel, or perhaps something other worldly? The answer to that will be in my next post........

Part 2 the verse in Job.

2007-07-26T09:28:00.000-07:00

JOB 4:12
"Now a word was secretly brought to me, And my ear received a whisper of it. 13) In disquieting thoughts from the visions of the night, When deep sleep falls on men, 14)) Fear came upon me, and trembling, Which made all my bones shake. 15) Then a spirit passed before my face; The hair on my body stood up. 16 It stood still, But I could not discern its appearance. A form was before my eyes; There was silence; Then I heard a voice saying: 17) 'Can a mortal be more righteous than God? Can a man be more pure than his Maker? 18) If He puts no trust in His servants, If He charges His angels with error, 19) How much more those who dwell in houses of clay, Whose foundation is in the dust, Who are crushed before a moth? 20) They are broken in pieces from morning till evening; They perish forever, with no one regarding. 21) Does not their own excellence go away? They die, even without wisdom.'

So let's break this down to really understand what Eliphaz is relating to Job. The first sentence Ol'Eli tells Job something that happened to him that no one else knew about. He obviously regarded it as a significant spiritual encounter full of some hidden Knowledge. He fully believed what occurred was the (ha) Gospel truth.
"In disquieting thoughts from the visions of the night when deep sleep falls on men" He was having nightmares which tells us he had entered into R.E.M. sleep. So he was completely unconscious physically. ( but suddenly) "Fear came upon me with trembling that made all my bones shake." Something jolted his body awake. I believe that though our minds and body enter into a sleep state. Our spirits are always on. Not God conscience, but on. I believe Eli's spirit became aware of another spirit in the room and reacted violently. Causing a direct response to his physical body. Or the other spirit manifested physically upon Eliphaz. After all he was having nightmares and anxiety he also mentions fear. I won't pretend to know what exactly was taking place but I have had similar encounters with the spirit realm in my sleep. We also know that it wasn't a noise that woke him because he is careful to mention that the entity was silent until it spoke.

Ok, so now he's conscience. we know he is no longer dreaming because your not aware of your physical body when you're unconscious. So for the rest of the experience Eliphaz is awake, aware, and taking notes. He sees a spirit with his own eyes which are now open. And describes it as a form with out any distinguishable features. However he mentions that it stood still which leads me to think that there was some sort of physical dimension to it. I don't think it was transparent or a mist. It could also have been a completely physical form that he simply did not recognize because he had no reference for it. " I could not discern it's appearance" it certainly wasn't human or animal, but it was real.

I thought the " Hair on my body stood up" was interesting too. You can find this in almost any ghost/alien encounter documented. There could be a number of metaphysical reasons for this, including electromagnetic field disturbance. It is said that all living things have an energy or aura as some call it. It is documented, but I believe that the human spirit in relation to our soul condition is what projects our energy. Or countenance as the Bible refers to it. ( of course I'm willing to be wrong on all of this) That's all for now...............

"Sunny Get the Nannites"

2007-07-25T09:30:00.000-07:00

OK,.....................so for the next couple of installations I will attempt to blog upon one subject. ( and doubt arises.........so I punch it in the face, this is my place not myspace) Sorry, I was inspired by Lexi's spoken word blog.

For those of you who do not know. I am intensely interested by unexplained reoccurring phenomenons. Whether they appear in nature or science or the corner of our eyes. I am convinced that if you want truth from the past you have to seek origins, or a first documented occurrence. I have found in my few years as a Bible believing Spirit filled Christian that the Bible is a good place to start. And in my opinion is the best place to find anything regarding the human experience. Either of the mind, body, soul, or spirit.

So the other week I was reading through a few portions of Job, arguably the oldest written book of the Bible. Yet not the first book we read in the old testament. I believe the purpose of this book is to reveal to us the nature of Satan and the world religious view. Which also has the same source. Satan. Upon reading I came across a very interesting encounter with what I believe to be a fallen angel/Demonic spirit. Along with a few other verses. I believe this single encounter is one of the precursors of night terrors and alien abduction. Not to mention the world view of humanity. I think it is a key to understanding the strategy's of the enemy that we wrestle against.

In Genesis we ( the human race ) meet the nature of Satan ( Lucifer the rebel angel) in a powerful physical and verbal encounter. Which alters the course of God's original intent for humans and the earth as a whole. However it does not alter God's own intentions which remain to this day. And which we are invited to be co participants of........AWESOME.........more to come stay tuned. ( please forgive any misspelled words)

I'm Back!!!!

2007-05-08T09:18:00.000-07:00

Alright, I forgot my password and my url address. After revealing my inadequacies to my blog savvy wife, she helped me with what I was doing wrong. And now I'm back. Oh and by the way I have a little rap for you.

I roll with ladybot
Ghetto from the start
you can not hope to stop

ladybot ladybot.

sometimes while I draw characters I sing them a theme song.

So today I met a young Indian man from Hyderabad. I shared with him that I had been to his city and really enjoyed the people there. He asked why I had gone, so I told him it was a missionary trip. He asked me what kind......I said Christian. Oh, he said rather excitedly. Now believing him to be a Christian I started to tell him of the villages and how much I loved the people. He asked me a few more questions about my experience. I didn't get to tell about any of the miracles or anything like that. I told him how my awesome wife was going back to India this summer. Then he said something I did not expect.....

"Man, Christians are always doing good things like that everywhere and those people need it". Then he looked at himself and rather bashfully said "Muslims........they don't do anything like that." A little stunned I sputtered out........aw that's not true..... They have a pretty good banking system in Nigeria. I completely left out the part about having to join mos( I'll correct the spelling later) in order to bank with them. Still on the clock I offered him my name and a handshake. Then told him I'd see him later. His name was Balai and he was one of the nicest young men I've met in a long time.

Oh and he also asked where my church was, very cool.

What we have is not equal to what we are.....

2007-04-03T10:17:00.000-07:00

My Friend what are we afraid to lose that we would hold after this breath of life expires and the silver cord is severed, And this dirt laid/made flesh retires? Can it be preserved, This stuff we've made our lives?
Can we hold it in our hands before Him, The giver of all things? Will it match the value of crimson royalty? Could it be counted a worthy exchange?

And when He holds out His hands before us…..the ones that bear our names, what then, what then? The spoil of our life will be as ashes in the wind. Dear friend count the cost……what is it to gain this kindling wood world if our souls are to be lost. Let's mark our selves of Him, And store our treasures in Heaven, And shake the ashes from our feet.